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There’s No Crying in Crossfit. Unless your name is Melissa.

Someone gave me a hard time recently for joining a cross fit gym. They said it was SUCH a fad right now, and it has become a “cool-kids” workout.

Believe me. If I wanted to look cool, I sure as heck wouldn’t be dragging my butt around a  cross fit gym.

I started a little over a month ago. The box I joined requires you do take 4 weeks of beginner training before they allow you to work out in a regular class (Oh, box is another word for gym. Yup, that right there? Cool kid lingo). My first WOD (workout of the day) ever completed, my trainer called ‘time’ when I finished, and I fought the urge to burst into tears. I sat on a row machine, having completed my last 400m, my head hung, my body heaving, and all I wanted to do was cry. It wasn’t out of sadness or defeat. I think it was because for the 5 minutes prior, I had been mentally telling myself  “KEEP GOING”, “YOU CAN DO THIS”, “I. AM. WORTH. IT”.  Every muscle in my body was on the verge of giving up,  I had to dig mentally deeper in myself then I ever had before. And even though quitting would have been easier, I wanted the reward of not giving up. And I did it. I finished. Maybe they were tears of happiness in the end.

There are not many instances in life when you have to mentally talk yourself through something. There is a lot of growth that happens when no one else can help you, and you have to dig deep within yourself to keep going. How often DO we tell ourselves that we are WORTHY of not quitting and being the best we can be?

I have now completed the month of training and have joined the regular classes. And I’m not going to lie, IT’S FREAKING HARD. Some days just suck (with a capital S) and I fight the urge to not beat myself up about it (and cry from sheer exhaustion). I’m usually the last to finish, and I’m struggling through the workout. But I know that I am mentally stronger because of it, and well, I’m sure I’m getting physically stronger too. In the end, I know that it will never get easy. It’s always going to be mental battle to push harder, keep going, dig deeper.

That’s what crossfit is. It’s not about big muscles (even though there are a LOT of those). It’s not about being the best, or being first. It’s about finding the place in your head where you believe in yourself.

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  1. Sabrina

    May 28th, 2013 at 9:18 am

    I’m REALLY proud of you. Some days all I can tell myself (when I’m the last one to finish and obviously (to me) struggling the most) is that this is for ME. I’m not competing, I’m not in a race, I’m doing this workout for me and to push myself. But it looks like you already get that 🙂 Love you, chica!!

  2. Amy

    May 28th, 2013 at 9:41 am

    This is just what I needed. Thank you for sharing! You go girl!!!

  3. Meagan

    May 28th, 2013 at 9:42 am

    Go YOU! Don’t listen to the nay-sayers. I’ve been Crossfitting for 3.5 years & it will change you in so many amazing ways. You’ll be astounded by what you can accomplish! Good luck & keep at it. I started out finishing last as well, it doesn’t last forever!

  4. Rana

    May 28th, 2013 at 4:47 pm

    You are a rock star and you look just as fabulous as this is making you feel! Keep it up sister! 🙂

  5. Tanja

    May 29th, 2013 at 4:40 pm

    I seriously believe that’s the best work-out ever! 🙂 Now all I need to do is save money, because the Vancouver prices are, eh, ridiculous.

    You go girl! Very brave!

  6. mara

    June 6th, 2013 at 10:21 am

    we are such huge crossfit and paleo fans! i just love that last line about believing in yourself. i so agree. i couldn’t do a pull up when i started and i still have to use the band to help but i’m up to four in just a few weeks. so glad you are finding time for yourself. it’s no easy task for us mothers.

  7. Whitney Lane

    July 23rd, 2013 at 11:50 am

    So proud of you! That’s crazy tough and I’m pretty sure next time I see you you’ll be able to kick my butt lol.

  8. j. shipley

    July 24th, 2013 at 5:14 pm

    atta gurl. keep it up my friend. you got this! 🙂

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